The beginnings.
January 30th, 2025
Theres a lot of debate on what I should be writing here. My head is full of belligerent words and thoughts constantly battling for first pick. So, music or movies, food or life, drugs or alcohol, friends or nature, myself or everyone else. I have no idea. Perhaps I’ll jump around and find my footing somewhere, throw it at the wall until it sticks type shit. This is also perfect for Evan and I to reconnect our love. My sweet boy finds it hard to believe my love for him is true because of what I spend my time doing. Im an easy lover, and I love, he knows that.
I find friends and lovers a like, I do not like spending any more time than I have to inside and it gets to my head. I have to go out, find people, find love, find something. And it takes away from us. I worry often that I spend much of my life out, and not enough with him. I miss my boy, truly and deeply. I just wish he was here with me! with me doing everything im doing but with him instead. I worry I wont have the time of day to live the life I want to live. That Im going to lose out on time if I do homework or sit inside. It’s a scary thing, time.
I love my friend, my dear friend Evan.
Song of the Day:
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